Just like, say anything that would, uh, that an album would start with, or something. The 2008 Economic Collapse Perfect- I hate my job, hate my life, I hate everything Crying in the bathroom before we get to closing Oh my god, I wonder why I feel like I'm burdening I could be the dog that these bitches could be worshipping Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah I gotta get the fuck out of here And I don't wanna wait another year Carolyn's fingers in my mouth until I fucking puke Because the valley just ain't going anywhere Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah I hope you die Suck my dick You can go fuck yourself

I'm not on the mountain I don't see my friends when the weathers not friendly Water like a fountain Took a lot of tears, but I guess I'm here now Life's hard, so I find Life's hard, but I'm fine Holding on to the hands that tell me to stay on the ground Holding on so I don't make like god and not fucking exist I left California Bestie did some shit that I don't wanna talk about Could never forget you Sometimes I laugh to myself about the good times that we had And its sad But you get knocked down and you pick yourself back up And you move on to the next best thing And I'm just finding what's best for me Life's a charm on my necklace Nicotine for breakfast Writing- It's a metric fuck ton Everybody's got one Life can be a lil fun (If you want it to) And I wish you could understand the way That I perceive the things that bring me joy Holding on to the hands that tell me to stay on the ground Holding on Holding on to my friends and my family, so dear to my heart Holding on so I don't make like god and not fucking exist

Shut up, gate that lizard tongue behind your teeth If you don't then keep it brief, yeah What's that in the floor? It's crawling out from beneath What the fuck's it want from me? Retract my limbs inside my body and I just don't know what to do What the fuck is coexisting if I can't be inside the same room as you? (Huh?) Well I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know Why your aura is so red n I don't like it Well I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know Why I hate the shit you say because it don't make sense at all You're walking 'round, with a crown Everything is out of bounds And my world is falling down (Down, down, down) I wanna shout, wanna shout Wanna shout, wanna shout Wanna shout, wanna shout I wanna shout it aloud Oh oh oh oh oh oh First they're fucking sweet bitch Then they're fucking sour bitch Oh oh oh oh oh oh You're a daisy if a flower bitch Retract my limbs inside my body and I just don't know what to do What the fuck is coexisting- (No no no no ah fuck. Why does this always happen to me?) Well I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know Why your aura is so red n I don't like it Well I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know Why I hate the shit you say because it don't make sense at all I get so bent inside I wanna shout, wanna shout Wanna shout, wanna shout Wanna shout, wanna shout I wanna shout it aloud (Yeah, yeah, yeah) Fuck a conversation when it stagnate I'm jus tryna go around, fuck, get my a- (Don't say that!) I get so exhausted, people 'round me get me aggravated I get so aggravated Damn this bitch got moves and shit Hustled out of 20 bucks and shit Just trying to not give a shit (And then you tell me) And then you tell me I'm wrong when I didn't even ask And then I take it personally (But why do you do that?) (Haha, well) I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know And I can't help that I get exhausted around the people I love I think I jus need a little bit of space But I could also be a little bit more patient Because I owe that to everyone Yeah! (Oh yeah)

Feels like we're on the up And yet it manages to be a big fucking nothing Circular spectacle Sitting soft on a shimmering joy So simple its impossible Take it out, beam it out, all across the world (Ugh) Short cut about to cost a whole lot more (Yeah) And I just hate it Pink rose fragrance Every one is a two, is a three four five Your smile from the inside I feel dumb For the cards I dealt myself For the recoil For my hands Disappoint Dissociate Ribs through my skin The audience claps My reality killed itself again (Uh huh) Because I like to play pretend (Oh woah) I don't wanna just be friends (No, no) Might turn off the door Never see you again Yeah I forget that the universe is bigger than me (I forget that the universe is bigger than me) I cant bring myself to be happy Ohhh And I just hate it Pink rose fragrance Every one is a two, is a three four five Your smile from the inside Can I just get one more chance I wanna try it again I swear to god, can't let me die To my insides

You said That everything is fine But I'm not confident that anything is all right And you said That you think that I'm cool But how do I know that's even true I'm embarrassed of all the thoughts I have It’s the rarest when I don't fucking care I feel stupid all the fucking time What am I doing here? You do what you do I stay in my bed Radio active mutation in my head No, no Please don't feel bad It's not your fault I'm just jealous as fuck (Jealous, jealous) I'm just jealous as fuck (Jealous, jealous) (Yeah yeah, yeah yeah) Yeah No You said You care about our connection And you don't want me to take anything the wrong way And you said You said that it'd be best If we stopped acting Because its distracting And that's fine The race can't always be mine And maybe it's just my sweet tooth (Yeah, ohh) But I sense sugar in the recipe You do what you do I stay in my bed Radio active mutation in my head No, no Please don't feel bad It's not your fault I'm just jealous as fuck (Jealous, jealous) (I'm just jealous) (Jealous, jealous) I'm just jealous as fuck (Jealous, jealous) (Jealous, jealous, ohh) And when the ceiling tiles fall down What will replace? I'm not the one enamored by The hand that's stricken my face And when I feel sick in bed Will the fetal position save me? All that I can do is hope for the best, I guess And I don't wanna puke when I'm on stage And you better not trap me in this cage Distract me from the fear of open sky Manhattan makes me feel (Manhattan makes me feel) (Like I'm) Like I'm dying Like I'm dying Like I'm dying You do what you do I stay in my bed Radio active mutation in my head No, no When all is said and done I hope we can still be friends You do what you do I stay in my bed Radio active mutation in my head No, no Please don't feel bad It's not your fault I'm just jealous as fuck

I was walking thirty minutes down to Target I was trying to buy shampoo and maybe forget There's no escaping from the bush without a scar Sleeping on the couch is difficult when you're there All I wanted was a good night, well no fair There's not much I can do except become a star Guess he's not the right one for me Cleaning up the petty debris I'll leave behind Before it even touches the ground I'm never ever getting over this- Guess he's not the right one for me Cleaning up the petty debris I'll leave behind Before it even touches the ground I'm never ever getting over this now I was at the water fountain with no spare change I still hoped for something special, newly arranged I got no control of the cards when you're the czar And I felt so sick And the week played tricks Never felt so happy leaving in a separate car Guess he's not the right one for me Cleaning up the petty debris I'll leave behind Before it even touches the ground I'm never ever getting over this- Guess he's not the right one for me Cleaning up the petty debris I'll leave behind Before it even touches the ground I'm never ever getting over this now Hey Paul, hey Paul, hey Paul Let's have a ball Please catch me, catch me Trusting you on the fall Hey Paul, hey Paul, hey Paul Let's have a ball You never even wanna see me at all (Guess he's not the right one for me) (Cleaning up the petty debris I'll leave behind) (Before it even touches the ground) (I'm never ever getting over-) Guess he's not the right one for me Cleaning up the petty debris I'll leave behind Before it even touches the ground I'm never ever getting over this- Guess he's not the right one for me Cleaning up the petty debris I'll leave behind Before it even touches the ground I'm never ever getting over this now

Check it I love your attitude You keep your door shut and out of the blue you Step out with fire in your hair Blood drains from your piercing stare I lose my mind behind these eyes And you can never ever ever tell why I tell you once, I tell you twice Its fine, its fine How Capricorn of me A constant fucking game of hide and seek with My insides, inside me And I swear I don't care, haven't I gotten this far You say you like me because I'm nice But all these images do not recognize I'm gonna scream, I'm gonna cry And through the canyon Down the alley Up to uncanny valley This looks just like me This face looks just like mine One day I hope we all explode exactly all at once Because ripping tape has never been my speed and makes me feel alone I cried in front of everyone on the last day of senior year Because loneliness felt like a plague I jus barely managed to escape And I've been tryna push myself and hold on to the things I have Because I'm so fucking scared of going back to where I was before I get so fucking tired from the tiniest of things I just want love, I just want friendship, but right now its harder than its ever been (You're not going anywhere if you keep acting like this) I know there's love all around And I can't help but feel numb I have a suit made up of steel and a soul And inside is just an empty black hole You've all done so much for me I appreciate it all On my good days you crack me out of my shell And every other day just feels like hell (Yet another trend rider) I'm not okay And I'm staying this way I'm not okay I'm not okay And I'm staying this way I'm not okay I'm not okay And I'm staying this way I'm not okay I'm not okay And I'm staying this way I'm not okay (Everything will be alright in the end)

The jingle of your keys as you walk out the door I remember when it didn't feel like this before And now its gotten sore Maybe I need to turn the page real soon Because right now its blank, and there's nothing to see Maybe I should write it in myself, put a little more me in But I got no confidence The pencil breaks and I start to tense So what do I do next If I can't do it myself You know I know me best And I can never get my shit together Uh oh! Woah And its all on me Its all on me You are not my friend You don't even really know who I am I'm about to be the next big thing No one wanna be a rock star more than me Its almost been a year since California There's so many people coming in and out of my place And I wonder if they even recognize my face My name If I don't make it somethings got to change So what do I do next If I can't do it myself You know I know me best And I ca- Hold on let me write a new song Something you could probably sing along to Hold on let me write a new song And it sounds like this And it sounds like this It sounds like Ah Well god damn How in the world could this happen Why did the world let this happen to me Now I'm bitter Cold under sheets on my mattress Somebody slip me the fastest way out Out Started using makeup Now gay men don't like me as much I wanna be your man I wanna be your girl I want the best of both worlds The last time I loved someone It didn't really feel like love And I been thinking about what a relationship could be for me You could be my owner I could be your pet Text me 'till the night ends I'll b all set Maybe call me puppy Maybe bite my neck Maybe all I really want is just to have sex I swear I could care less I don't get attached Nothing bad could ever happen Nothing bad could ever happen Nothing bad could ever happen Nothing bad could ever happen Nothing bad could ever happen Nothing bad could ever happen I swear In the cold, in the sprawl of it all Would you laugh if I said I was lying Because I was I was lying To myself and everyone else It was never all for my health I never really told you how I felt But did I even really know it for myself Well I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know I don't know, I don't know Curling up into a ball, albeit deflated I think I gave up on hope of ever being sated I was searching for a way to love my life and body I got hurt, you got hurt, oh my god, I'm sorry Its my fault, I'm a mess Destroyed at my hand's behest There's no peace without love Think I best be going west I might die all alone Washed away with all the rest Washed away with all the And you can't feel it I hate these lyrics And no matter just how hard I try It never really comes out right Like is it even worth a try Did you wanna see behind these eyes I don't think so But whatever Its fine Guess I was too slow To catch up with the globe I could have set myself up Like five to six years ago But I didn't do shit for myself And sometimes I feel like nothing I'm nothing August 14, 2023 Visiting the valley Smoking on the back patio And I'm looking at all these familiar trees The album comes out in less than a month Just been finishing up the details I wouldn't believe you if you showed me the future When I turned 21 I was floating down the creek And I felt your embrace (Your embrace) And you pulled me from the baggage In the crawlspace The past few years been so rough And I'm better for it now I'm saying what I mean And I say it for myself (Listen to your heart, 1, 2, 3, 4) Yeah Life is a tight rope walk And you might get hurt But you get back up And we make it work You can take your time Sitting in the dirt But don't stay put You don't wanna lurk In the deep damp dark For the rest of your life Don't you cut that rope With the edge of your knife In the realm of now You can think that its right But if when you go Know the devil and its bite Everything you love It would never be the same Its a mystery What could be out of frame And I hope you know What you got to your name California 2020 Everything was up in flames It would never be the same It would never be the same It would never be the same It would never- It would never Be The same In the clouds above BK I can sorta make out your face While I watch from the comfort of my couch Sending kisses stuck in place I like what I got right here And I'm glad I just made par I'll be back sometime someday I'll catch u at stars Thank you so much